Halsey Reveals How Mac Miller’s Death Gave Her the ‘Reality Check’ Needed to Leave a Relationship

Halsey is thanking Mac Miller for giving her the strength to leave a relationship that was taking a dark turn.

She discussed the rapper’s death on Dax Sheppard’s Armchair Expert podcast, calling his accidental overdose in 2018 as a “turning point” for her. “This is a terrible thing to say because I think it puts a positive connotation on a heinously tragic event, but it gave me the courage and the faith to leave the relationship I was in,” she said. “It gave me that real f–king reality check that I needed and I think it probably did the same for a lot of other people too.”

“I was lucky enough to be in a position where I was like, ‘Okay, cool I’m not ruining my life yet,’ but I never would’ve expected some of the people that I know and loved and lost—to see them go down that path so aggressively and so rapidly,” she continued. “I kind of recognized the spiral early and was like, ‘Alright, now I know.'”

While Halsey didn’t reveal who she was referring to, she shared that drugs were an issue in the relationship. “As a result, my currency of expressing love with them became doing drugs with them,” she explained, and added that “there was a lot of infidelity in the relationship too. It was like if I don’t do it with you, you’re going to go do it with someone else and then probably f— them and I’m going to take you back anyway because this is what we do.”

Only after she left the relationship, she was able to work on getting sober and managing her bipolar disorder. “One of the first steps of doing that was removing myself from a situation where there’s a literal chemical interference,” she said. “I’m going to remove myself from that, figure out what my baseline is and then kind of fix it from there.”

Creatively, Halsey shared that she’s “making some of the best stuff I’ve ever made right now, because the dark stuff doesn’t disappear, it’s just easier to access at an arm’s length now.”

Listen to the full episode here.


Taraji P. Henson Talks Hosting the AMAs & Meeting BTS: ‘They Knew Who I Was!’

Hosting the 2020 American Music Awards is a natural fit for Taraji P. Henson, a former musical theater major at Howard University.

“It’s just a chance for me to show all sides of my talent,” the Golden Globe-winning actress told Billboard of her upcoming gig. “When you study musical theater, you gotta sing, you gotta dance, you gotta act.”

“I guess some would say I’m a triple threat,” she jokingly added with a hair flip. “I like to have fun and make people laugh. 20 years ago, that’s what I came out here to do: comedy.”

While the AMAs will look different this year as the COVID-19 pandemic continues to spread, Henson says that awards shows are more important now than ever. “Right now, that’s what we have in the arts,” she shared. “That’s all we have that’s keeping us together, keeping us sane. Netflix, streaming, people watching television — that’s what’s making us feel somewhat normal. Certainly now, music is a thing that unites us all. We need these music awards shows. We can’t go to concerts! Come on, we need something!”

Turns out, Henson is part of the ARMY. She shared she’s most looking forward to watching BTS present the TV debut of their upcoming BE album’s “Life Goes On,” and run through their groovy Hot 100 chart topper “Dynamite.”

“They are the hottest craze,” she explained, before recalling meeting the K-pop group on The Tonight Show With Jimmy Fallon, where the septet recognized her as her Empire character, Cookie Lyon. “They knew who I was! They were like, ‘Cookie! Cookie!’ So it’s going to be great to see them perform on this big stage. You know on Jimmy Fallon the stage is small, but to see them at this big venue is going to be really, really, amazing,” she shared.

There will be no audience to cheer on the star-studded performers and award winners at the ceremony this year, but fret not! Henson has some tricks up her sleeves. She didn’t say much, but did reveal that she has a “very innovative way of bringing in a live audience” that was all her idea. “Let the people know that I will be bringing some celebrities live in the house to sit in the audience, because I’m a great host,” she announced.

Catch Henson hosting the AMAs Sunday, Nov. 22, at 8 p.m. ET/PT on ABC, live from the Microsoft Theater in Los Angeles. You can also check out the actress hosting the new podcast series Jacked: Rise of the New Jack Sound, premiering Tuesday on Apple Podcasts.

The 2020 American Music Awards are produced by dick clark productions, which is owned by MRC Entertainment, the parent company of Billboard.